feeling good about myself...

lately ive been struggling with pride. when i say lately, in this case, i mean for the last 24 years of my life. pride has led me to treat people poorly, take people for granted, make bad decisions, ruin friendships and most recently i have come to realize how it has impacted my relationship with God. i am too proud to rely on him, to see the wonder and otherness that God is, and to put aside my wants and needs for those of others.
its hard for me to admit when im wrong, and even harder to break a poor personal trait, such as this, that has become something of an awful habit.
i have reduced my relationship with God to mathematical formulas and answers to all the questions. my pride has prevented me from being lost in wonder and truly fearing the God of the universe.
its something im working on...

changing it up

playing around on my mac i found a new blog thing that im trying out. as of now it probably will not be a long term thing. but its kind of fun to play around on. see what it can do here http://web.mac.com/jeremyalanolson/iWeb

first post from a real computer

so yesterday i got home from work to see a box from fedex sitting on the table waiting for me. turns out it was a MacBook Pro.
after about 30 minutes on the phone with paul taylor, im hooked up to the wireless internet and running. thanks paul!
anyway, everyone should have one of these. fast, slick and easier to use than an iPod.
in real news...things in yellowknife are going well. lots of cool people and quite a bit of fun stuff to do.
last weekend i skied 12.5 kms at the ski club here. im still sore from it. but it was fun.
thats all for today. stay tuned...

more funny stuff from rick...

well, if you need a good laugh. rick mercer is one of the best ways to get it. go check out this link here and play the "Hand In My Pocket Spoof Ad"
i thought the original ads were funny...but this is even better.

what?

i thought these were funny anyway

"Faithful Companion" by Mark Veldhoven



























by Big Jule ------------------------------->


found both of these on Rick Mercers blog.
check it out. its funny too.

from a wise man in china...

one of the wisest people i know sent me this in response to my post about the apathy and laziness ive been feeling. i believe he found it reading some Madame Guyon...

check it out, its been making me think since i read it yesterday.

"Dear reader, you must realize that God has only one desire. Certainly you can never understand a dry spell unless you understand what His desire is. His desire is to give Himself to the soul that really loves Him and to that soul which earnestly seeks Him. And yet it is true that this God who desires to give Himself to you will often conceal Himself from you—from you, the very one who seeks Him! Now why would God do that? Dear saint of God, you must learn the ways of your Lord. Yours is a God who often hides Himself. He hides Himself for a purpose. Why? His purpose is to rouse you from spiritual laziness. His purpose in removing Himself from you is to cause you to pursue Him.”

one reason to hate march...

in march they already start talking about and showing baseball. i mean, give me a break...they already show all 200 regular season games throughout the year, so do we really need to watch an extra 40 games of out of shape athletes play bad baseball?
even the highlights are boring.
other than that march is a pretty sweet month.

not thinking much lately

other than focusing on the new job, i havent been thinking about much lately.
ive kind of slipped into a state of apathy or laziness or something when other things are called into question. dave's thoughts really challenged me today about apathy and letting sin creep in.
its pretty easy to let that happen. you dont even have to want it to be there, it can find its way through cracks and crevices. small things like the apathy and the laziness i have been feeling when it comes to faith have found their way in like water pouring into a cup full of marbles.
what i really want in those spaces between the marbles is that relationship with jesus that ive been missing for far too long. i need to find the drain, exhaust the water and let the real thing pour in...